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Aug. 22nd, 2008

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Oh, it's so weird blogging at this hour in the morning. And today I'll be going to school. o.0

Man, been staying up with the help of caffeine. But then again it's taking a huge toll on my health. Having coffee three days in a row isn't good. I've used about ten 3-in-1 instant coffee packets. In three days. Shucks. No choice though, these three days have been loaded with tests. 

On Wednesday I had Chem lect test, on Thurs I had Econs CT and today I'll be having Maths Test as well as Chem Mock SPA. Then finally tomorrow I can study what I want and not the topics for the common tests. It's mighty irritating when what I plan to do doesn't get done cos of tests. Argh. Hopefully I'll be able to catch up on lost time over the weekend.

I really really feel extremely unhealthy especially when I use my exercise time for study. I need to reorganise such that I study and go to the gym. That way it'll be better for my concentration during the exams. Today sis said we shld go jog sometime soon. And yehhh. I reaaaally need the exercise. Needa improve the timing of my 2.4km run. T.T 3 minutes slower this year than the last. What a waste.

Oh well gotta go pracise integration.

Aug. 19th, 2008


Haha. I think there was a typo todayyy. I dont think it was the worst 40 minutes of my life. Rather, I think it was the EXAMINER'S worst 40 minutes of his life. UGH. I think I am the worst candidate there ever was. :X

Pieces had lots of stopping, some misread notes resulting in wrong chords and RUSHING.
Scales = one word:  HORRIBLE.
Sightreading no need to say alr.
Aural: CRAPPO.

Damn. I wasted $340. crapcrapcrap.

I really dont knw if i shld retake laaa. Next yr = A levels. I might consider taking at the start of the year. But then agn, I'll be having loads of common tests ard that period. Sianzxsxzxs.

Haixxx. Guess now its time for to concentrate on studying for promos. With a little less than a month its time to CHIONG, especially with piano outta the way, temporarily. This wld mean more late nights and more coffee (read the article today? I think im one of the ppl that contribute to 12 000 tons of coffee expected to be used this yr :X ). Oh wells. Other than that, I better complete my EoM.

Heard that the choir room lock was busted. Whoever did that is an idiot.

Olympics Olympics Olympics, I LOVEEEE you. I dont want you to endddd. haha. The Olympics is super inspiring. All the sportsmen and sportswomen gathering. WOAh. Haha. Look at those longgg and leannn muscles. wo0t. nicenicenice. 

Ah well, ciaoz :) 


haixxx. Ever went into an exam room knowing you're gonna fail? Real bad? Not like midyears, when you still hv promos to redeem yourself, but like a national exam. K fine. But like a piano exam.  Well I'm just about to go for my piano exam, and I hate this feeling of knowing im gonna fail. Shucks. From 2.00 pm to 2.40 pm is SO gonna be the worst 40 minutes of my life. I feel damn bad for the examiner. None of my pieces are fluent, and my scales SUCK to the core. My sight-reading cmi. omgosh. I think the only marks im gna get are for aural. CRAP. But yeh, ive more or less given up on piano. If I fail, im nt gna retake, and I'll guess i'll just have grade 6 piano practical and theory for life. Damn, I've tried. But i just cant. Crap. 0 more days to my gr8 piano exam. And this is it. Lets see if im still alive when i return. 

Aug. 9th, 2008


Theres a hero
If you look inside your heart
You dont have to be afraid
Of what you are
Theres an answer
If you reach into your soul
And the sorrow that you know
Will melt away

And then a hero comes along
With the strength to carry on
And you cast your fears aside
And you know you can survive
So when you feel like hope is gone
Look inside you and be strong
And you'll finally see the truth
That a hero lies in you

Its a long road
When you face the world alone
No one reaches out a hand
For you to hold
You can find love
If you search within yourself
And the emptiness you felt
Will disappear

And then a hero comes along
With the strength to carry on
And you cast your fears aside
And you know you can survive
So when you feel like hope is gone
Look inside you and be strong
And you'll finally see the truth
That a hero lies in you

Oh oooh
Lord knows
Dreams are hard to follow

But dont let anyone
Tear them away, hey yeah
Hold on
There will be tomorrow
In time
You'll find the way

And then a hero comes along
With the strength to carry on
And you cast your fears aside
And you know you can survive
So when you feel like hope is gone
Look inside you and be strong
And you'll finally see the truth
That a hero lies in you

That a hero lies in you
That a hero lies in

by mariah carey

Aug. 5th, 2008


Ask me what I'd say of life, and I'd tell you - Life...is fragile. And short. Whatever God gives you, he can take back. Yet, I know God has his plans. I went for a tribe member's wake today, which was the second wake I had been to all my life, with my grandfather's being the first. However, this wake was somehow more significant that the first wake I had been to, perhaps because it was more peaceful and also because during the time of my grandfather's wake, I was merely 6 years of age. 10 years on, and it is a whole new spectrum of emotions, although I know it will never be of the same magnitude as when I lose a loved one of my own. It saddened me to know that she had passed on, but at the same time hearing all the speeches various people in her life had to share about her, there was a deep sense of warmth in my heart, that my sister in Christ was able to complete whatever God had planned for her to do within a short 22 yeas of age. Although I did not know her well, she struck me as one who inspired others to never give up and fight on. In her case, she fought a long, tough battle with leukemia, and fought it well. I don't think I'll forget her in a long time. How she always seemed positive when I saw her, how she never seemed to complain and how she made an impact on others through Christ. She was an exemplary example of how we should live our life to the fullest, glorifying God with her never ceasing hope, constantly renewed faith and spreading joy to those around us. After going for the wake today, I am also determined to live my life to the fullest.

My deepest condolences to the family of the late Ms Sarah Lim Li Fang.

Jul. 6th, 2008






Today is THE DAY!!! 

The day is TODAY!!! 


I'm finally gonna go to wales:)

Havent been overseas in 1.5 years, which is for me, a very long time. Partly becoz every time my parents ask me to go I refuse and also cos' of O levels. So yeh. Been excited for weeks alr:D YAY!!!

Hv to be at the airport at 9.30pm, and the plane departs at 11.55pm. heh. How cool is that man! Yep, Alex' parents will come to pick me up later and i'll be gg to the airport with her.

But now, xinyi a.k.a SIS is here, at home with me! Haha, she spent the night. And altho it was simple, it was rather fun. We had maggi mee and fried rice for dinner, which we had a great time randomly adding stuff, and i gotta say, it didn't taste half bad! It was actually rather good! =)

Haha. dorothy (who is my REAL sister btw) and I carried our mattresses to the living room and camped there the whole night. o.0
lol lol. And xy slept on the sofa. haha. Damn funny. My bro came back ard 6a.m. in the morning and saw her sprawled on the sofa. =/ And he was like what the shit. hahahaha.

Anw later off to do some grocery shopping and whatever for the trip with sis. Ought to be quite fun ba. Haha. Excited excited. 

I'll update when i get back!

Jun. 28th, 2008


haha. Wow, almost a month since i last blogged. So lets not make it a full month lol. K, much has happened. If I were to blog on a daily basis then it wouldn't appear a lot luhhh. But then, after ALMOST a month has passed, yeh, things have accumulated. 

Well, for one, my myes are over. I don't think I will do well. T.T One week of studying aint enough to cover all the topics. And man, if i am thinking of promoting, WHICH I WILL - I am left with 12 more weeks to study. 12 more weeks to promos like whatheshit. Ahhh well. Im predicting my results. And they are all gna be U, except maybe for chinese and maybe, just maybe and hopefully pleasepleaseplease lit as well. Maths is cfm die alr. I only did 37/100 marks worth of questions so if it will be impossible to pass. And it would be crazytopzyturvysiaooooo if i get full marks for the questions I attempted. So i wont possibly get 37/100. I'll most probably get like <20. Omgoshshitshitdamn. Hahaha. Chemeeeeeshhhhhhtreeeee arhhh. That one ah. I attempted more than half the questions but trust moiii i didnt understand AT all anything i was doing. I was so tired I almost fell asleep during the paper. I couldnt even think for goodness' sake. So i wrote crap. And trust me, when you write crap, you get crap results. And I have a feeling I will get lower marks for chem than maths. GREATTTTT. Hahaha. Others dowan say alr luh. Die liaozxszxsxzxs. Oh, and just for the record 3 hours for one paper is siao luh. Especially afternoon papers I'll just die. And what more when there are two papers in one day. Haha GG sia. Damn I must start working hard:/

Anw, for the record, my chinese A lvl oral is OVER. Wo0t. overoverover. donedonedone :D:D:D
K la. wasnt that nervous, not when i was the second last person, so i had plenty of time to be nervous before that heh. So yeh. 

ANDAND. I can't wait for the wales trip! It's next sun! :D I'll be leaving in the night wo0tz. I think it's gna be great fun. Will be coming back like on the 16th! So unfair for chinese students cos we gotta leave a day earlier:( You know why? Cos we hv chinese a lvl listening. Anw, once i come back im gna hv to begin mugging like shit. And catching up with the lessons that i missed. 

Haha k la. Dowan blog alr:)
Nxt time, hopefully awful soon.

Maybe not seeing you
makes me not miss you.
I think it's for the better.

May. 30th, 2008

/I'm missing you.

DAMN. My complexion's real bad. It's screwed yet again. Haix. SIGHHHHHHHHH. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! I hate pimples and blackheads and whiteheads! UGH. :(

Haha anw, much has happened. Holidays have come, for one. And I have no idea to rejoice or to sulk. Cos got so much work to catch up on but also nice movies to watch and great friends to meet up with!

Happy belated Birthday


Anw, just came back from choir cip! Wow. Today was wayyy better than ytd. Haha. For those who dont know what choir did for cip we went to organise a day camp for the children of a daycare centre. Mymy, for the first part of ytd the children were little terrors. They fought with each other, were rowdy and screamed and shouted. But after their afternoon nap, they came out refreshed, happy and energetic in a positive way, ready to play the station games the commitee organised! For ytd, we clocked in ard 10 hours of cip. I mean it man, the children, especially the younger boys and girls are so cute when at the "lu lu lu, lu lu lu lu la" part. Woah. but when it comes to the mischievous part. Wo0t, that's it man. Haha. But I liked this small boy called Kelvin in day 1. Awww, He was so cuttttttttttttttte!!!!! And also Kok Wee in day 2! heh. P1 boys are so innocent:):)

Ahhh anw today was much better, for one the kids were less rowdy! And I must say rather well behaved. And also cos it was better organised since we learnt from ytd's experience. Clocked in ard 12 hrs today. I'm not sure. So altogether 22 hours in 2 days. But seriously that ain't impt. Cos I really learnt a lot from the Camp Kodomo. And there is new meaning to the song kodomo (which is Japanese for "children"). Or perhaps the underlying meaning of the songs was brought out. And we learn that kids have a super good side and a super bad side. hahaha. But it was real fulfilling.

Anw ytd after the whole day camp thing went to meet sis for dinner. Ate yummy dim sum, including wo0t, wait for it, wait for it, XIAO LONG BAO. ahhhh. I want to eat it agn! lol. Today after the whole thing went to Ian's hse with Desmond, Novabelle, Jia Sheng and Philip to play wii! hahah. Very fun lol. Although I keep losing. And Ian's hse is super nice. like woahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. It was fun bonding with them cos' I realised I didn't really bond with them these past few months. We had duck rice for dinner on bouncy chairs! And uhhh I realise sth. 

Do I really laugh out of the norm?

Don't people laugh like I do? :/
Marcus went like: "Your laugh super high frequency."
And Desmond went: " Does your brother laugh like that?"

Uhhh. Like what? Laugh like what lol?

Ahhhh it was wayyyyy cool, these past few days. Although aye. Need to study! Soon there'll be NO TIME!

hahaha. Sis! I've updated seee! :):)

May. 21st, 2008

/Soccer Game!

YO VJC!!!!! WASSUP!!!!!
hahaha. love supporting, love cheering! It's been fab with all the supporting, and yeh! Even though our soccer boys lost to MJ, HEY. What matters is they tried their best, and VJC loves them! Yeh la, they really trained hard as I observed, and I think I as a VJC student I am really proud of them. Coming in second is quite a feat alr!
Wah but today it was really really really hard to cheer whole-heartedly for VJC - cos my bro was on the opposite team i.e. MJC. Haha. So i was cheering for korkor but cheering for VJC at the same time. hahah. Cheering for VJC team and 1/11 of MJC team. Wo0t! No. 9 from MJC all the way! T.T hahah. My bro was the ultimate clown. Trying to stall for time by dribbling and losing the ball. And then at the last minute he almost scored a goal but hit the goal post. Ummm. Sry if i sound like im siding more with MJC here, and a traitor to VJC, but sian, that was super wasted. IT HIT THE GOAL POST LEHHHH. haha. and he told me later if he had made the score 3  1, he wld hv just taken off his shirt and get a yellow card for all he cared, and that his fellow team members were intending to do the same. hahaha. And somemore there was one guy from VJC, (im afraid) behind me who was like jeering at MJC, and what more he insulted my bro. Called him a "malay who was trying to hao lian". RAWR. I was rather angry with him, because even if we want to win, we win fair and square, and DEFINITELY NOT by jeering. So to WHOEVER who did that, you know who you are, YOU SUCK!

But other than that, I'll bet all the other VJC supporters rawked! And well done korkor, proud of you! :)


May. 18th, 2008

/How the pieces fall into place.

I realised I havent blogged for 16 days already. Well, it seemed longer, but in the end only 16 days, chey! This past week has been a really fruitful one, in fact I would even call it the most fruitful one of the ENTIRE year SO FAR. Which is also my reason for blogging today, because I ain't about to let it pass without recording it down. So, next time when I look back, I will know: "HEY THIS HAS BEEN MY MOST FRUITFUL WEEK OF THE YEAR SO FAR". Haha yep.

Anyway, it all started out on monday, 12th May 2008 - Symphony Of Voices 2008. First time performing at the esplanade ever, and yeh, I really really enjoyed myself, which is kinda a surprising since sometimes stage fright prevents me from doing so. T.T How do I overcome stage fright! It's a stupid thing to have, AND I NEED TO BE RID OF IT!! I tried to overcome it by signing up for music fest but in the end I let the whole team down, and we got out after the FIRST ROUND cos I was so nervous i forgot not just a part of the lyrics, but ALL THE LYRICS. UGH. Ahh, back to the point, GUESS WHAT. Like 10 minutes before the concert started ard 3/4 (maybe slightly less) of the choir got jammed in the lift! T.T  Yeh well, I think cos' of that experience I will rmb SOV 2008 forever laaaaa! Thank god that we were rescued in time for the concert. PHEW. Ahhh well, I was kinda nervous for the first five minutes of the concert. Yes, cos of stage fright:/ (which i want to GO AWAY sooooo badly!) But gradually I warmed up to the audience and began enjoying myself on stage. And my smile was not forced! It came naturally and was genuine! So yep, even though I know we went sharp for ill married woman, still enjoyed myself, and got rid of the nervousness. I started hearing us, hearing VJ Choir performing, the harmony, and I realised from then on the choir will change, cos some year twos were leaving. And yeh, I know I didn't really get to know most of the year twos but it's still kinda sad cos' time passed so fast. TOO fast. It's only been slightly less than 6 months laaa. And what. I first entered VJ Choir on saturday, 17th November 2007. Yeh. I rmb cos it was one day after my birthday, and I also know it was on ray rin's birthday. And then whoosssssh. Here come 12th May 2008. Hah. Told you it was fast. It seemed like carolling season just yesterday, and boy oh boy, in about the same amount of days, the next carolling season is gna come. And WOW. There and then I will just exclaim " WOW! ONE YEAR HAS PASSED SINCE O LEVELS! THIS HAS GOTTA BE A JOKE!" I bet it'll just seem like tomorrow is the next carolling. T.T Sometimes I get this feeling Im living in a dream. Like I'm stuck in a moment and I can't wake up. Like my life is so surreal. Like my life is a joke. It's a feeling hard to describe, but it comes and goes now and then. Take for example, now is 18th May, but I get the feeling it's still Post O-level hols, cos I feel like it's a trick and life isn't passing THAT fast. Ahh go back to talking about SOV!!! Yeh well, I'll miss the year twos who aren't going for the wales trip, even though I didn't get to know you ppl that well. 

Special thanks to Reuben for informing me of the auditions last year. I never thought I would get to VJ ever, what more the VJ Choir, and I wouldn't have if I didn't appeal through choir for the "first three months" so I could -2 off my score.

Anw, tues seemed a short day cos' I woke up late. And reached sch just in time for lit lecture. And then after that I saw a PARTICULAR teacher, in which I shall NOT name even though YOU DONT DESERVE TO BE KEPT ANONYMOUS AFTER YOUR SARCASTIC REMARKS. Ahh well, on from that, the day passed super quickly - rushed PW GPP and reached home - practised piano cos i supposedly had piano lesson in the night, and after I practised for three hours my piano teacher called to say piano lesson was to be postponed to fri. And I was sighing in relief because I didn't feel I was prepared.

Wednesday was another short day cos there was no choir practice. PLUS we got to be let off at 12.45p.m. to watch the girls soccer finals against SAJC. The school spent >$2000 to send us to jalan besar stadium to watch them can! I'm so glad I didn't pon! GOSH it was super exciting. SAJC scored 1st, and I felt the referee was unfair cos he gave a free kick to SAJC over nothing. The girl fell by herself lor, like none of our soccer girls tripped her or what. And then that free kick caused SAJC to lead us by one goal. By end of the second half, our girls still hadn't scored any goal so the score was 1  0, with SAJC leading.  But then during the second half, our girls scored through a free kick, so the score came to be 1  1!! And then second half ended with a draw. So there had to be the golden goal, in which no team scored. Finally for penalty shootouts, our girls WON 6  5!!! hahahahhaha. I was like screaming for joy laaaaa. I was so nervous. For every ball they kicked, I was afraid it wouldn't get in. For every ball SAJC kicked, I was praying so hard for Joan to save it. And finally on the 6th ball SHE DID. Thank god! LOL. I was on the SAJC side when VJC won, so I was like one of the few screaming for joy on the SAJC side. haha. And some SAJC ppl were staring at me as if I were crazy, like I cared:P

Thursday was a short school day, but after that we were supposed to support the volleyball girls, in which I didn't go lol. Went to run some errands with Kai Xian, Jasmine and Jing Xian before we met those going for SLV (which is sth like class CIP). We went to Khong Hwa Pri Sch to give a talk on internet safety and then we tutored the kids. Hah. Was rather fun cos I realised I could actually tutor! I amazed my own self. Hah, aside for a noisy few, especially superrrrr loud girls, that screamed in my ear until after the whole thing my left year felt like it was bleeding, it wass rather engaging, and fun even. Time passed quite fast!

Fri was the last week day of the week, and it was also CHEM SPA day. Was fun to do QA especially after you studied all the cations and stuffs and knew what to expect and what not to, and it was a breeze. :)

Spent saturday and today studying mainly. Yep. It was the studying that made this wk fruitful cos' since the start of sch I havent been sitting down properly and studying.

Ahh super tired. Shld go slp. Tmr got piano lesson first thing in the morning, after which heading to my cousins' house to study, and catch a movie with them!

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